my grandmother spoils me!

I know I have said this over and over but I seriously mean it when I say, My grandmother is the most inspirational person I know. Her caring for other's needs, cooking for her brothers & sisters who live in town, and giving to needy causes give her ONE more reason why I love her dearly! The past week I went to visit her for Mother's Day and the following Tuesday her sister, Essie, had major surgery in Nasvhille. My family on my grandmother's side was all at the hospital and it was great to reunite with all of them (they made the 7 hours of sitting in the waiting room go by SO fast). It was sitting in the waiting room looking and talking with family that made me realize how much alike I am with my mom and grandmother. I HAVE ALWAYS wanted to know where I get my personality from and I can honestly say that me and my grandmother are JUST ALIKE. We both care SO much for others, especially our family members. I get my emotions from her and my needs for always wanting just a little bit of chocolate each day:) I love her to death! She is my favorite person to be with! She is blonde at heart (just like me) and we both have our ways of thinking out side the box. When my great-aunt's surgery was complete we both cried tears of joy while everyone else didn't cry a single tear (they aren't as sensible as us). But either way we have an AWESOME family and I am proud to call them mine.

My grandmother spoils me SO bad and she knows it. When I go to Grandma's house, I know I am going to be getting money, LOTS of food, and a HUGE shopping spree with Grandma's card in Nashville! She loves it though! She has 3 grandchildren and I am the only one who wants to come visit her so I am the one who she spends all her money on!:) hehe i am loved! I love her chocolate pies/ brownies/ cakes, ect. she is the best cook ever! I always wake up to breakfast in bed. I am definitely treated like a Princess @ Grandma's!

I have been thinking a lot about relationships lately and I don't know why. I wish I could figure it out. I am definitely leaving this in God's hands. It's not like i WANT or NEED a boyfriend or another guy in my life, it's just that even my mom has talked to me about this subject. The other day she said, "Wow ML it's been 4 months since you have had a boyfriend, don't you want to find another one?" I was like MOTHER, I don't want to FIND a boyfriend.. that's crazy! I want this one to work out on its own.. I want to know what I am looking for first. HE will come one day.. I mean right?? OR am I "that girl" who doesn't get a man until i am like 30 years old? hmm.. LIFE IS SO CONFUSING.. oh well I am up for whatever God's challege may be.

Have a wonderful & safe weekend:) YAYY for SUMMER 2009

Through the calm & through the storms- YOU NEVER LET GO

"Never Let Go"
Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You


It's been a while since I last wrote on my blog because I have been thinking if I should continue to keep this up or if it is just a waste of time writing out what has been going on in my life. I listen to K LOVE radio every morning and it was kind of ironic how this morning they were talking about people's blogs being very inspirational and that's what i want out of this.

here's a quick update: I just finished my freshman year of College-WOOHOO! never been so happy to get out of school in my life. I hate school! I really do! lol but anyways.. my parents just got back from Portland, OR and my mom has been home sick ever since they got back. I took her to the doctor tonight and she has something wrong with her ear from the plane rides. Today is my parent's wedding anniversary, my grandfather died 6 years ago, and this Saturday would have been my TWO year Anniversary with G.. I am so overwelmed with emotions right now. I am leaving for Memphis Saturday to go see a friend and then go to my grandmother's house for a couple of days! I AM PUMPED about that though. I need her now more than ever!!!!!! I love my grandmother sooo0oooo much!! Her sister is having surgery on Tuesday and she wants the WHOLE family to come and be with her. She has 11 brothers and sisters so yeah we will have a whole hospital full of family. :) but I just am emotionally drained from thinking about school, family, and still friends.

In need of prayer. Thanks-

Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.