Here's to relationships

Of course, if you haven't noticed by now.. i LOVE QUOTES!!
so here it goes..

"You aren't going to be her first, her last, or her only. she's loved before, she will love again.. but if she loves you now what else matters? she's not perfect. you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. but if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think at least twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes.. hold on to her and give her the most you can. she's not thinking about you every moment but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break. don't hurt her, don't change her, don't expect more that she can give. don't analyze. smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad and miss her when she's not there. love hard when there is love to be had." -Grey's Anatomy

Lately I have been put through many circumstances than I ever have had in the past. Let me refresh your memory... I have been in two relationships in the past 5 years. I have dated and loved the best gentlemen and they will never be forgotten in my heart. They are both special in their own ways and taught me a lot of life lessons. I will always be thankful for the friends who got us together and for the friends who helped us both in the mist of bad situations (breakups). But now on to another subject.. God's been putting sayings and lyrics in my head over the past week. I CAN NOT GET RELATIONSHIP TYPE MUSIC OUT OF MY HEAD. Every time I put my ipod in to go running and put it on shuffle some kind of lovey dovey song comes on. I just don't get it! Maybe I will some day but not now.. I really enjoy conversations with friends who have the same problems ( literally speaking) as me and it's really helpful when we can talk through it and laugh at each other for thinking of the same thing. :) God is good!

To change the subject again, I am so very thankful for children.. I really have had the best times babysitting lately and hearing their sweet innocent voices talk about how much they REALLY love macdonalds or barbies or high school musical. It makes me laugh because OH how I wish to be 4 or 6 again. My favorite little girl sat in my lap at church this morning and all I could thank about is how much I truly love this child of God.. She makes me laugh when I am just not in a laughing kind of mood. She drew me a note today and all it had on it was lots of hearts and I love You... that ment so much to me and I will forever keep it in my bible to remind me of her.
I babysat the other day and another little boy was riding with me on our way home and i said hey what do you want to do today and he said.. Oh, um we could go to the zoo, or go to the toystore or even KFC!!!! I just died out laughing and was like Ummm it's about to storm maybe we can play inside. haha Wow I live for these moments to play with children. I really wish I knew what I want to do as a job in the future.. kids, sports, psychiatry, public relations? If anyone knows of anything good.. PLEASE let me know! HA

Have a great week..:) End with a quote.

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away." -Meredith Grey

life's plan

"Lord, in my heart I plan my course, but You determine my steps. "(Prov. 16:9)

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me then you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD,"and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV

So a lot has been going on lately and I have been dwelling in scripture to help me through these times. Once again the main facts are SCHOOl, family, friends, and relationship. At this time of year school has been hectic and it seems like all my teachers are making me write more and more papers that are so pointless. I have been so busy doing schoolwork that I have NO free time for myself. I hate it! but whatever.. summer is around the corner:)

Family- since I am an only child and the rest of my relatives live in Tennesee, we rarely see them except for big holidays! which i wish we could change because i love my grandmother more than anything in this world!! She is an amazing woman who lost her husband at a young age and is the most spiritual person i have ever met in my life! Friends- I am stuck at figuring out who I am and who i want to become that I can't decide which type of friends I should continue hanging out with.. I love them all and its not like i dont want friends- that would be crazy. HA but I just want to settle down and figure out my life and my future and it is difficult.

The other night I talked for hours to an old friend who I enjoyed talking to because we have so much in common that we never even knew we did! We continued talking about how we wished we knew what our future held.. about how "we" have NO idea what to do with our lives.. it's so stressful not knowing who is going to be in our future and what jobs we are going to have and so on.. AH! But I have learned so many lessons about just LIVE your LIFE.. about how imporant college years are because they fly by in a heart beat and there's no going back. So with that saying.. "Trust in the Lord God with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding."

Relationships- will come for another blog of its own.. one day..

Sorry it's been a couple of days since I have had time to write in my blog. Right now my life is so overwelming!!! But I have had a great couple of days.. Last night I went to a Chi Omega meeting where they informed us that we were having a Chi O/ Tri Delt Grab-A-Date party! IT was SOOO much fun!! I loved it! It was my 2nd time to not have my boyfriend with me at a party and it was a lot easier to adjust being with girls at a party. I do have to admit.. being single is awesome!! I feel that dating someone in college just makes people miss fun opportunities there are since we only have 4 years to go out and have fun with each other!! But of course I always want to be a witness to Christ through the good and the bad times. Lately I have had to make a lot of future decisions for myself and my family. Since I am an only child my parents are thinking about future plans of moving. It is tough thinking about not having a house in Hattiesburg, where I have been living for 12 years now. Even though we wont be moving for a couple of years, I am excited about looking for houses closer to my grandmother in TN. God holds the future and I truly believe that he will make things work out for the best. This summer will be interesting because I am actually living in the Chi O house, working a full time job, and taking summer classes. What a summer it will be! haha but I want to leave you with one of my favorite songs by MercyMe:

What is life?
A thousand roads, a thousand ways
Why am I so afraid to move
I crossed the line
I'm stepping out so come what may
I give it all cause I'm drawn to You

As long as my heart is beating...Where You lead me I will follow
Where You lead me I give my life away
Where You lead me I will follow
Forever and a day
Forever and a day

I can't deny Your very presence is my life
And why would I ever turn away
Cause deep inside I know that I cannot rely
On anything less than faith

As long as my heart is beating...Where You lead me I will follow
Where You lead me I give my life away
Where You lead me I will follow
Forever and a day

This is all I'm dreaming of
To live completely in Your love

So this is life

Where You lead me I give my life away
Where You lead me I will follow
Forever and a day

Where You lead me I will follow
Where You lead me I give my life away
Where You lead me I will follow
Forever and a day
Forever and a day