birthday

So yesterday was my 20th birthday.. wow.. i am old haha it was a great day! i had lunch with my mom, then a surprise visit with balloons from Ms Susan Miller and artwork by my favorite 2-year-old boy, Jack..and i loved it!:) then i went class BOO but then went to get my nails done and helped out with "Waiting for a Cure" for this Saturday's big ball :) then I went to work BOO.. & then went to Chilis to eat with some friends for my birthday! I had a good day!
Today, I have been thinking all day about some things that have been on my mind
1) School- I like Southern Miss but I want a change
2) friends- I love my friends but i miss my high school best friends more!
3) sorority- I thought I liked it up until now and I don't want to leave it but if my grades don't get better then I have to change something..
4) family- i miss my grandmother! a lot! and i see my mom and dad more now then when i am at home!!

I need a vacation.


i am just really scattered right now but I know this is just a part of college and life that is tough and whoever is the strongest wins... I am a happy person most of the time and but today was just tough to even smile.. maybe bc the wet weather has a lot to do with it (i love the sunshine).

Praying for Emily Williams (sweet girl I know that broke her arm and had to have surgry), family and friends of Meredith Fox & others that were in the car wreck, and my grandmother who is upset that she couldn't be with me on my birthday (she deserves so much!!)

Thanks for reading and letting me vent. lol
"Life may not be the party we hoped for but while we are here we might as well dance"

well.. I'm back again!!

Still struggling on some things in life but that's okay! Lately I've learned to forgive and forget. You see I have had things come up like for example when I thought I was going to do good on a HUGE test and then BAM I failed it, and then another when I asked someone to go to church with me and they were like YAHH definitely and then the morning of like 10 minutes before church starts.. they text me and tell me they overslept! It just irritates me but i have learned that the littles things in life shouldn't weaken me but build me up to be a stronger person inside and out. Also, today is the day we voted for little sisters in sorority and i felt that my vote didn't even count and it didn't matter who i liked because i wasn't going to get her anyways..:( but after a bunch of my friends noticed how i was acting and took me to another room to talk about things... i opened up and told/ showed my true feelings and we all bonded and agreed on how things are starting to be in my sorority! Things have got to change or I am just not going to be a happy person anymore! But with all that said.. I have GREAT news- my great-aunt (my grandmother's sister)is CANCER FREE!! she just found out last night!! WOOHOO.. that makes me super happy and relieved! God is good!
"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good; what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for."

I know I over use this quote a lot but it's just too good to not read on a daily basis!

USM---> 2-0 yayahh!

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 6 days:) i'm ready!

In Our Bonds,
Mary Lois

"Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone; to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me exclusive of anyone or anything else; exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing...one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best! Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest thing. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you. Just wait, that's all. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don't look around at the things you think you want. Just keep looking off and away to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would dream of. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time, until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I've prepared for you. You won't be able to experience the love that exemplified you with Me, and this is perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection,and love that I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly. For I am God; believe it and be satisfied."


I LOVE reading wonderful quotes of scpriture.. that makes me happy!

Lately, through social life, school, and sorority I have been having a hard time getting away from negativeness. Some of my best friends just come with me crying negative things about others and it's hard to tell them I just want to stay positive about everything but lately I let myself go off on some girls just so they know that I want to speak Godly things and stay upbeat about EVERYTHING so i do well this semester. Last semester at school, I had one of the hardest times ever.. me and my boyfriend broke up, then my best friend wouldn't speak to me, then my grandmother started getting sad about family stuff, then my dad started getting sick, roommate problems, my grades slipped, AND THE LIST goes on BUT that is beside the point. I have moved on completely and by soaking myself in new Christian friends, paying attention in school, and going without labeling others have helped me realize how easy it would be an inspiration to those around. I have already had someone come up to me and tell me that her mom wants her to be in the same clubs and organizations as I am in and she wants me to help her become the woman I am? that is exactly what her mother said and it warms my heart that I can be able to do this.
last but not least... FOOTBALL SEASON is about to start! WOOHOO
I pray for those playing, coaching, and watching. I hate seeing players get hurt!:( that is so painful to watch and I just hope this year is a better season for those who didn't have a good one last year!

Thanks for reading
-ML

SO it has been almost a month since I have written on here.. WOW.. this is offically the middle of SUMMER! YAY! Lately, I have been looking back at how things have changed with me and the people around me. All the kids who were babies last year are now walking and talking, my friends have changed(some for the good and some for the bad) and i am meeting new people every day, I have a job now which requires me to make something of myself daily, and not to mention I am a happy person most every day!! I have never felt this good in a long time.. Which is weird.. I have changed spiritual, emotionally, but not physically (I am working on it HEHE).. I am living life to the fullest and I get excited over the smallest things! The children I babysit for our the sweetest, most caring, thoughtful, and just fun to be around kids ever.. and I really think that is what perks me up daily. My life goal is to be a person people look up to and I want to witness to people that even when in a tough situation.. other people have gone through worse and are still doing fine! I want to look on the bright side of things and just ignore the negative stuff! I want to stay positive and be encouraging, honest, thoughtful, whitty, sociable, daring, but always wanting to make some one else's day better:)

thanks to all who read this..

Living through Him,
Mary Lois

Daddy's Girl

I know it's been a while since I have blogged but I have been super busy and every day I think of something to write about on here but today I just couldn't go any longer so today's blog is dedicated to my Father. What better person to decicate something to than to Him. First and foremost I am greatful to have my Heavenly father by my daily side and to worship him every day. I am also so blessed to have my earthly father with me today as we shared the wonderful holiday of Father's Day together! We watched golf.. I was in bored tears but I still managed to do it.. along with the movie "Oh Brother Where Art Thou".. awesome movie by the way.
As I sat through the church service today at Temple Baptist I couldn't help but think about those who have lost their earthly father in the past couple of years. I can not imagine what was going through their minds today on this Father's Day 2009.. my best friend lost her father two years ago and my heart hurts deeply for her along with the sweet Weathers' crew who lost their beloved father and husband only a year ago. Our God is Mighty to Save though and I know both of these families are wonderful examples of how we should live for Him. It amazes me how strong they are while people who have both parents are the ones that feel like they have nothing. I am so confused about life right now and I really am focusing on God's Word rather than trying to fix my life for myself the way I want it.
PATIENCE- is my new KEY word for life. Only God knows when it's time for things to happen.

My Hero...My Daddy...



Daddy's Little Girl

As I look back to see
I remember times spent on your knee

When it came to my biggest fears
you came along to wipe away my tears

But as years started rushing by
I'll have to say with a sigh

You needed me just as bad
and those times were so sad

But now we're a family once more
and I know there's so much in store

You always seem to know when I need a smile
especially when you haven't seen one in a while

We seem to always be on the same page
even though there's a big difference in age

We know how to make each other laugh
and it makes time fly past

Daddy thats why I'm so thankful for you
I would never ask for anyone new

I love you so very much
because you help me with all my problems and such

I know you wish you could give me the world
but I'm proud enough with my title
"Daddy's Little Girl"

my grandmother spoils me!

I know I have said this over and over but I seriously mean it when I say, My grandmother is the most inspirational person I know. Her caring for other's needs, cooking for her brothers & sisters who live in town, and giving to needy causes give her ONE more reason why I love her dearly! The past week I went to visit her for Mother's Day and the following Tuesday her sister, Essie, had major surgery in Nasvhille. My family on my grandmother's side was all at the hospital and it was great to reunite with all of them (they made the 7 hours of sitting in the waiting room go by SO fast). It was sitting in the waiting room looking and talking with family that made me realize how much alike I am with my mom and grandmother. I HAVE ALWAYS wanted to know where I get my personality from and I can honestly say that me and my grandmother are JUST ALIKE. We both care SO much for others, especially our family members. I get my emotions from her and my needs for always wanting just a little bit of chocolate each day:) I love her to death! She is my favorite person to be with! She is blonde at heart (just like me) and we both have our ways of thinking out side the box. When my great-aunt's surgery was complete we both cried tears of joy while everyone else didn't cry a single tear (they aren't as sensible as us). But either way we have an AWESOME family and I am proud to call them mine.

My grandmother spoils me SO bad and she knows it. When I go to Grandma's house, I know I am going to be getting money, LOTS of food, and a HUGE shopping spree with Grandma's card in Nashville! She loves it though! She has 3 grandchildren and I am the only one who wants to come visit her so I am the one who she spends all her money on!:) hehe i am loved! I love her chocolate pies/ brownies/ cakes, ect. she is the best cook ever! I always wake up to breakfast in bed. I am definitely treated like a Princess @ Grandma's!

I have been thinking a lot about relationships lately and I don't know why. I wish I could figure it out. I am definitely leaving this in God's hands. It's not like i WANT or NEED a boyfriend or another guy in my life, it's just that even my mom has talked to me about this subject. The other day she said, "Wow ML it's been 4 months since you have had a boyfriend, don't you want to find another one?" I was like MOTHER, I don't want to FIND a boyfriend.. that's crazy! I want this one to work out on its own.. I want to know what I am looking for first. HE will come one day.. I mean right?? OR am I "that girl" who doesn't get a man until i am like 30 years old? hmm.. LIFE IS SO CONFUSING.. oh well I am up for whatever God's challege may be.

Have a wonderful & safe weekend:) YAYY for SUMMER 2009

Through the calm & through the storms- YOU NEVER LET GO

"Never Let Go"
Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You


It's been a while since I last wrote on my blog because I have been thinking if I should continue to keep this up or if it is just a waste of time writing out what has been going on in my life. I listen to K LOVE radio every morning and it was kind of ironic how this morning they were talking about people's blogs being very inspirational and that's what i want out of this.

here's a quick update: I just finished my freshman year of College-WOOHOO! never been so happy to get out of school in my life. I hate school! I really do! lol but anyways.. my parents just got back from Portland, OR and my mom has been home sick ever since they got back. I took her to the doctor tonight and she has something wrong with her ear from the plane rides. Today is my parent's wedding anniversary, my grandfather died 6 years ago, and this Saturday would have been my TWO year Anniversary with G.. I am so overwelmed with emotions right now. I am leaving for Memphis Saturday to go see a friend and then go to my grandmother's house for a couple of days! I AM PUMPED about that though. I need her now more than ever!!!!!! I love my grandmother sooo0oooo much!! Her sister is having surgery on Tuesday and she wants the WHOLE family to come and be with her. She has 11 brothers and sisters so yeah we will have a whole hospital full of family. :) but I just am emotionally drained from thinking about school, family, and still friends.

In need of prayer. Thanks-

Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.