it's been a while

Hola! It has been a while since I have written on here..very sorry..this semester I have been nonstop busy from 8am-11pm++. I have been a happy girl bc this semester is my favorite because it's BASEBALL SEASON!!WHOOP WHOOP. my favorite! I'm going to make this one short but i will be back soon to write more.

please pray a special prayer for my friends. Nothing particular but just to come more soverign in the Lord about decisions. thanks!

-mlh

NEW year, NEW blog

These past couple of months have been great with blogging about my life and how things are turning out for the best! So lately, as of this NEW year 2010 I have decided to put my life situations on hold and start this NEW blog about my daily eating and exercising. I will write down my day-to-day stuff and see how much I have lost by Spring Break. I have been wanting to do this for myself for about 5 years and this year is my chance to shine! I want to look healthy and feel comfortable in wearing a bathing suit and such! I think it will be a fun experience to try on clothes and actually buy smaller sizes!! woohoo!! Okay here's what I've done so far:

Monday
9am- eat blueberry fat-free yogart for breakfast with grape juice
10-12 workout- treadmill for 30 minutes, abs for 15, ball for 15
12pm- broccoli cheddar soup and water to drink
2pm- graham crackers
5pm- frozen fat-free cheese pizza (small size)with water to drink

Tuesday
9- strawberry/ banana yogart
10-12- treadmill for 30, abs for 15, ball for 15, and Boot Camp workout video for about 30 minutes
1pm- subway teriyaki chicken 6" sandwhich with water
6pm- tomato and chicken ranch frozen dinner sandwhich with water
8pm- chips with spinach dip

story of my life..

Hola, como estas? ok jk.. i have been studying like crazy over the past two weeks! it's unreal! i haven't done anything besides school related work! UGH! I am so over this! ha but anyways the real reason I am writing this blog is to tell you the craziness stories i have had lately!
Wednesday morning I woke up at 8am for my 9am Religion and I usually have time to take a shower and all but this particualr morning i just woke up in a bad mood.. i got to class late and then he dismissed us right after i got there bc he just wanted us to come so he could wish us all a happy holiday.. so then i went to the library to study for a spanish test in 45 minutes, studied, got distracted with talking to someone(imagine that) so then i went to take my oral final exam for Spanish- where i didnt understand how to say what my favorite drink was- but i did okay! so then i went back to the library to study for my MCJ 101 test that was at 12oclock and it was already 11:15 so i went and studied and went to take the test and it was SUPER hard.. but after i went to my next class and the teacher was a jerk and made me redo my 10 page paper because it wasn't in CORRECT format. ugh! so after that i was just really mad so then i had to take someone home and by being a good person after i did i was like I HAVE TO GO HOME and just take a break and relax for just an hour or two.. so i was driving home and i looked down and realized my car was slowing down for some reason.. i looked again and i was completely out of gas!! FML. so then i just had it and decided instead of calling someone.. i will just walk to the gas station and do it myself- like a big girl- so as i started walking i was thinking back on my day and how much i have to do that night as well and i just lost it- i cried the whole mile to the gas station. i walked in and the lady was like aw what's wrong (yes i looked like an idiot) i was just like.. nothing.. i just ran out of gas though and i need to buy $4.55 of gas please! she looked at me and i said well here you can have this free and she gave me a gas tank thing.. so as i pumped my gas to take back to my car i just realized. wow.. this is the story of my life. the highlight of my day! really! ha gah but then i laughed the whole way back to my car and finally called my mom and told her what i just encountered and she comforted me and said just come home.
I came home and I got yelled at for something stupid but thats beside the point. Other than that I came back to USM and went to the Christmas tree lighting ceremony and it was great! Then went to the library with some dear friends and stayed late talking to them and didn't get in bed until 2am. Thanks to college finals! AWFUL...

TODAY WAS A MUCH BETTER DAY on a brighter note! I am so thankful to some really awesome friends i have that have been taking good care of me when i was sick last week and helping me study for terrible terrible final tests! I will be more thankful when i get to the point where everything school related is behind me and I can be non-stressed! WOW. that will be amazing- so much to look forward to!

thats all for now, pray for me please on my finals!xoxo



-ML

Time flys by when you're having fun

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

WOW, I can not believe how this semester has gone back so fast!! I'm sorry I haven't been able to write on my blog as much as I wish I could. Songfest, Chi Omega's philanthropy is now over with and Thanksgiving is in 9 days!! yippy:) Like I've said many times before, I LOVE HOLIDAYS!! I get excited around every holiday season!
This is my prayer tonight..

God, I pray tonight for my friends and family and how I ache for those who've lost loved ones over the past week. This Thanksgiving is going to be hard for a lot of people especially those who are in a finanical crisis. Grant us the abilty to give this holiday season and to have a loving heart. Please, Lord, watch over all of us who are getting ready for college finals and be with the ones who seek you. AMEN.

This past week has been sort of tough for me because November 12th marked the anniversary of my 13 year old cousin, Katie- who passed away 5 years ago- death. She would have been 18 now. Her smiling face still is pictured in my brain and it makes me happy to know she arises with our savior. I'm jealous! Also, a dear friend's husband, Jason Weathers 35th birthday was Nov 12th as well and he passed away summer of 08. VERY sad day to think about. BUT ANYWAYS.. let me move on to happier things..
1)Christmas is around the corner.. YAYYY! i love the merry spirit everyone gets around this time of year!
2) MY good friend just made the USM football team!! WOOHOO..i'm so very proud of him!
3) Temple Baptist Church is hosting a Christmas Celebration Dec 12th & 13th.. it is very fun and wonderful so YOU should totally come:)

HAVE A BLESSED WEEK

birthday

So yesterday was my 20th birthday.. wow.. i am old haha it was a great day! i had lunch with my mom, then a surprise visit with balloons from Ms Susan Miller and artwork by my favorite 2-year-old boy, Jack..and i loved it!:) then i went class BOO but then went to get my nails done and helped out with "Waiting for a Cure" for this Saturday's big ball :) then I went to work BOO.. & then went to Chilis to eat with some friends for my birthday! I had a good day!
Today, I have been thinking all day about some things that have been on my mind
1) School- I like Southern Miss but I want a change
2) friends- I love my friends but i miss my high school best friends more!
3) sorority- I thought I liked it up until now and I don't want to leave it but if my grades don't get better then I have to change something..
4) family- i miss my grandmother! a lot! and i see my mom and dad more now then when i am at home!!

I need a vacation.


i am just really scattered right now but I know this is just a part of college and life that is tough and whoever is the strongest wins... I am a happy person most of the time and but today was just tough to even smile.. maybe bc the wet weather has a lot to do with it (i love the sunshine).

Praying for Emily Williams (sweet girl I know that broke her arm and had to have surgry), family and friends of Meredith Fox & others that were in the car wreck, and my grandmother who is upset that she couldn't be with me on my birthday (she deserves so much!!)

Thanks for reading and letting me vent. lol
"Life may not be the party we hoped for but while we are here we might as well dance"

well.. I'm back again!!

Still struggling on some things in life but that's okay! Lately I've learned to forgive and forget. You see I have had things come up like for example when I thought I was going to do good on a HUGE test and then BAM I failed it, and then another when I asked someone to go to church with me and they were like YAHH definitely and then the morning of like 10 minutes before church starts.. they text me and tell me they overslept! It just irritates me but i have learned that the littles things in life shouldn't weaken me but build me up to be a stronger person inside and out. Also, today is the day we voted for little sisters in sorority and i felt that my vote didn't even count and it didn't matter who i liked because i wasn't going to get her anyways..:( but after a bunch of my friends noticed how i was acting and took me to another room to talk about things... i opened up and told/ showed my true feelings and we all bonded and agreed on how things are starting to be in my sorority! Things have got to change or I am just not going to be a happy person anymore! But with all that said.. I have GREAT news- my great-aunt (my grandmother's sister)is CANCER FREE!! she just found out last night!! WOOHOO.. that makes me super happy and relieved! God is good!
"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good; what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for."

I know I over use this quote a lot but it's just too good to not read on a daily basis!

USM---> 2-0 yayahh!

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 6 days:) i'm ready!

In Our Bonds,
Mary Lois

"Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone; to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me exclusive of anyone or anything else; exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing...one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best! Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest thing. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you. Just wait, that's all. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don't look around at the things you think you want. Just keep looking off and away to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would dream of. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time, until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I've prepared for you. You won't be able to experience the love that exemplified you with Me, and this is perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection,and love that I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly. For I am God; believe it and be satisfied."


I LOVE reading wonderful quotes of scpriture.. that makes me happy!

Lately, through social life, school, and sorority I have been having a hard time getting away from negativeness. Some of my best friends just come with me crying negative things about others and it's hard to tell them I just want to stay positive about everything but lately I let myself go off on some girls just so they know that I want to speak Godly things and stay upbeat about EVERYTHING so i do well this semester. Last semester at school, I had one of the hardest times ever.. me and my boyfriend broke up, then my best friend wouldn't speak to me, then my grandmother started getting sad about family stuff, then my dad started getting sick, roommate problems, my grades slipped, AND THE LIST goes on BUT that is beside the point. I have moved on completely and by soaking myself in new Christian friends, paying attention in school, and going without labeling others have helped me realize how easy it would be an inspiration to those around. I have already had someone come up to me and tell me that her mom wants her to be in the same clubs and organizations as I am in and she wants me to help her become the woman I am? that is exactly what her mother said and it warms my heart that I can be able to do this.
last but not least... FOOTBALL SEASON is about to start! WOOHOO
I pray for those playing, coaching, and watching. I hate seeing players get hurt!:( that is so painful to watch and I just hope this year is a better season for those who didn't have a good one last year!

Thanks for reading
-ML

SO it has been almost a month since I have written on here.. WOW.. this is offically the middle of SUMMER! YAY! Lately, I have been looking back at how things have changed with me and the people around me. All the kids who were babies last year are now walking and talking, my friends have changed(some for the good and some for the bad) and i am meeting new people every day, I have a job now which requires me to make something of myself daily, and not to mention I am a happy person most every day!! I have never felt this good in a long time.. Which is weird.. I have changed spiritual, emotionally, but not physically (I am working on it HEHE).. I am living life to the fullest and I get excited over the smallest things! The children I babysit for our the sweetest, most caring, thoughtful, and just fun to be around kids ever.. and I really think that is what perks me up daily. My life goal is to be a person people look up to and I want to witness to people that even when in a tough situation.. other people have gone through worse and are still doing fine! I want to look on the bright side of things and just ignore the negative stuff! I want to stay positive and be encouraging, honest, thoughtful, whitty, sociable, daring, but always wanting to make some one else's day better:)

thanks to all who read this..

Living through Him,
Mary Lois

Daddy's Girl

I know it's been a while since I have blogged but I have been super busy and every day I think of something to write about on here but today I just couldn't go any longer so today's blog is dedicated to my Father. What better person to decicate something to than to Him. First and foremost I am greatful to have my Heavenly father by my daily side and to worship him every day. I am also so blessed to have my earthly father with me today as we shared the wonderful holiday of Father's Day together! We watched golf.. I was in bored tears but I still managed to do it.. along with the movie "Oh Brother Where Art Thou".. awesome movie by the way.
As I sat through the church service today at Temple Baptist I couldn't help but think about those who have lost their earthly father in the past couple of years. I can not imagine what was going through their minds today on this Father's Day 2009.. my best friend lost her father two years ago and my heart hurts deeply for her along with the sweet Weathers' crew who lost their beloved father and husband only a year ago. Our God is Mighty to Save though and I know both of these families are wonderful examples of how we should live for Him. It amazes me how strong they are while people who have both parents are the ones that feel like they have nothing. I am so confused about life right now and I really am focusing on God's Word rather than trying to fix my life for myself the way I want it.
PATIENCE- is my new KEY word for life. Only God knows when it's time for things to happen.

My Hero...My Daddy...



Daddy's Little Girl

As I look back to see
I remember times spent on your knee

When it came to my biggest fears
you came along to wipe away my tears

But as years started rushing by
I'll have to say with a sigh

You needed me just as bad
and those times were so sad

But now we're a family once more
and I know there's so much in store

You always seem to know when I need a smile
especially when you haven't seen one in a while

We seem to always be on the same page
even though there's a big difference in age

We know how to make each other laugh
and it makes time fly past

Daddy thats why I'm so thankful for you
I would never ask for anyone new

I love you so very much
because you help me with all my problems and such

I know you wish you could give me the world
but I'm proud enough with my title
"Daddy's Little Girl"

my grandmother spoils me!

I know I have said this over and over but I seriously mean it when I say, My grandmother is the most inspirational person I know. Her caring for other's needs, cooking for her brothers & sisters who live in town, and giving to needy causes give her ONE more reason why I love her dearly! The past week I went to visit her for Mother's Day and the following Tuesday her sister, Essie, had major surgery in Nasvhille. My family on my grandmother's side was all at the hospital and it was great to reunite with all of them (they made the 7 hours of sitting in the waiting room go by SO fast). It was sitting in the waiting room looking and talking with family that made me realize how much alike I am with my mom and grandmother. I HAVE ALWAYS wanted to know where I get my personality from and I can honestly say that me and my grandmother are JUST ALIKE. We both care SO much for others, especially our family members. I get my emotions from her and my needs for always wanting just a little bit of chocolate each day:) I love her to death! She is my favorite person to be with! She is blonde at heart (just like me) and we both have our ways of thinking out side the box. When my great-aunt's surgery was complete we both cried tears of joy while everyone else didn't cry a single tear (they aren't as sensible as us). But either way we have an AWESOME family and I am proud to call them mine.

My grandmother spoils me SO bad and she knows it. When I go to Grandma's house, I know I am going to be getting money, LOTS of food, and a HUGE shopping spree with Grandma's card in Nashville! She loves it though! She has 3 grandchildren and I am the only one who wants to come visit her so I am the one who she spends all her money on!:) hehe i am loved! I love her chocolate pies/ brownies/ cakes, ect. she is the best cook ever! I always wake up to breakfast in bed. I am definitely treated like a Princess @ Grandma's!

I have been thinking a lot about relationships lately and I don't know why. I wish I could figure it out. I am definitely leaving this in God's hands. It's not like i WANT or NEED a boyfriend or another guy in my life, it's just that even my mom has talked to me about this subject. The other day she said, "Wow ML it's been 4 months since you have had a boyfriend, don't you want to find another one?" I was like MOTHER, I don't want to FIND a boyfriend.. that's crazy! I want this one to work out on its own.. I want to know what I am looking for first. HE will come one day.. I mean right?? OR am I "that girl" who doesn't get a man until i am like 30 years old? hmm.. LIFE IS SO CONFUSING.. oh well I am up for whatever God's challege may be.

Have a wonderful & safe weekend:) YAYY for SUMMER 2009

Through the calm & through the storms- YOU NEVER LET GO

"Never Let Go"
Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You


It's been a while since I last wrote on my blog because I have been thinking if I should continue to keep this up or if it is just a waste of time writing out what has been going on in my life. I listen to K LOVE radio every morning and it was kind of ironic how this morning they were talking about people's blogs being very inspirational and that's what i want out of this.

here's a quick update: I just finished my freshman year of College-WOOHOO! never been so happy to get out of school in my life. I hate school! I really do! lol but anyways.. my parents just got back from Portland, OR and my mom has been home sick ever since they got back. I took her to the doctor tonight and she has something wrong with her ear from the plane rides. Today is my parent's wedding anniversary, my grandfather died 6 years ago, and this Saturday would have been my TWO year Anniversary with G.. I am so overwelmed with emotions right now. I am leaving for Memphis Saturday to go see a friend and then go to my grandmother's house for a couple of days! I AM PUMPED about that though. I need her now more than ever!!!!!! I love my grandmother sooo0oooo much!! Her sister is having surgery on Tuesday and she wants the WHOLE family to come and be with her. She has 11 brothers and sisters so yeah we will have a whole hospital full of family. :) but I just am emotionally drained from thinking about school, family, and still friends.

In need of prayer. Thanks-

Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.

When I'm crashing through the madness,
Not sure who I'm supposed to be,
When I'm caught up in the darkness,
It's Your hand that's leading me.

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going.

Anyone can give up. It's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you let it all fall apart, that's true strength.

So recently a friend asked me if I have read the book, "He's just not that into you" and I said umm no and she was like Oh my goodness you have got to go read it! It is worth your time! So i went yesterday to books-a-million and bought it.. I started reading it and now i can not stop! It is addicting for sure.. I will let you in on what it is all about. It is mostly on how you get into relationships right and how you act and how you lead someone on and mostly about how girls see guys differently as they see themselves. You may think you are doing the right thing by always being the caregiver but your partner or even friend may think different. This book also makes the reader feel good about themselves. "You are a-m-a-z-i-n-g in and out and you will one day recieve the man/woman of your dreams." This book is coming from a man's point of view but also takes up for the girl! It is wonderful. He (meaning the author) calls men cowards and useless in some chapters. Also, one of my favorite quotes is that "Actions speak louder than words" and it repeats itself millions of times in the book.
Be patient, two words that are SO hard for me to understand. I have always been very unpatient even when I was a little girl... Christmas presents used to be such a hard thing to just look at under the Christmas tree until Christmas morning!! haha my parents always said to just be patient and things will be easier for you! I will agree that I have gotten a lot better of the last year and I am now very laidback and my patience has gotten tons better! Thank goodness! I can now drive and let cars pass me and I don't get mad!:) yay!
Well my weekend was wonderful.. I went to a wedding on Saturday night and it was gorgeous and couldn't have been any better! Congrats to Haley and Daniel Ross! They are the cutest couple ever! Along with their wonderful families!

HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK.
YAYY FINALS ARE NEXT WEEK!:) SCHOOL'S ALMOST OUT! yahh..

"...whatever is TRUE, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable- if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise-dwell on these things." Philippians 4:8

We all have the right to dream -and to follow those dreams. As I grow older, I begin to realize that dreams have to exist alongside reality before I can accomplish the better dream. "Dreams" as we learn in my english class can be in many different prospectives. Either you "dream" an actual dream in your head or it can be an ambition or goal in life or other psychological issue. But right now I am going to talk about more of my "dreams" meaning amition and goals in life. I have accomplished many of them so far like graduating from high school, winning championships in tennis, and most importantly making mom and dad proud. In some cases I had many times when I thought that school, tennis, church, friends, etc. were very impossible to level out at the same time but then it all comes down to- With God all things are possible. which is written on a canvas in my room. I have come to find out lately that daily I am the greatest influence on myself and if I have meanings surrounding me in my room, car, and everywhere else with good bible verses and cute quotes then I am always thankful and friendly and just having a good time with living my life to the fullest. It is great! But there bigger dreams for me now and in the future that it is crazy how I am almost through with my freshman year of College.. at least 3 more years and I have to start now by planning out what I want to major in so that I can get a good job with good pay.. and now that the economy is bad... AH almost all the good jobs are already taken! haha but I am leaving it in God's hands to lead me down the right path in finding this job! :) Also.. not to mention.. My biggest dream besides a job would be to get married & start a family of my own.. which will not happen for a couple of years but still.. thats a big thing to start thinking about now because I am almost 20 years old. lol okay soo anyways..
I have had a great last couple of days and I could not ask for better friends to spend time with! As this school year is starting to end.. I have asked God to help me make good decisions for myself and I pray hard daily to let him lead me to meeting new people and going out on a limb for once.. I hung out with some girls that I have never really hung out with before last weekend and oh my goodnes.. did we have a good time? that is definitely an understandment. I had the best time and I can not wait to do it again soon! Then later I met up with another friend who came to see me and I had just as much fun with him as I did the girls.. ;) I am thankful.

my favorite verse:
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord,'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
that reminds me that God has a wonderful and unique plan for each person on this earth. Our plans become clear as we seek God, who implants dreams and then reveals his plans as we trust him with one step at a time.

Have a blessed and wonderful week.

When feeling discouraged.. READ GOD'S WORD

I am feeling very inspirational tonight so I will write some quotes and passages from my favorite book in the whole world, "Let God Surprise You" by a former Miss America- Heather McCallum and author Angela Hunt.

Sometimes God allows pain...
to teach us.
Sometimes he allows hurt...
to mature us.

"The Greatest dreams you can imagine will find their source in your greatest passions."

Don't despair when disagreements enter your life. Seek the counsel of wise and godly men and women around you. Check your motivations, stay true to God's word, and if you discern it to be God's will, hold the course.

I smiled when a friend told me this story: A man fell asleep, and in a dream he heard the voice of God. "Come outside," God said, "I have something to show you."
So the man woke up and went outside to find a huge boulder in his front lawn. "Now," God said, "Push against the rock."
So the man pushed and pushed and pushed for days, weeks, and months he concentrated on pushing the boulder, but the big rock would not budge.
Giving into discouragement, the man cried out to God, "I can't do it! You told me to push the boulder. I've tried with all my might, but it hasn't moved an inch."
He heard a soft laugh from above. "Why are you discouraged?" answered the Lord. "I told you to push the boulder- I never told you to move it. Only I can move a boulder of that size. But look at what has happened while you've been pushing- you've developed muscles, you've strengthened your patience, and tested your faith. So keep pushing until I'm ready to move the boulder."

I love that story. Though God will ultimately do the moving, he asks us to be co-laborers with him. He asks us to learn and stretch ourselves. He wants us to work as if everything depends on us, and pray as if everything depends upon him- because, ultimately, it does.

and that is how I see today and tomorrow and however many more days of life I am privileged to possess: Each day is a gift of God, each sound is a blessing I don't deserve. God is SO good!

Our God is a God of healing. Sometimes he heals through miracles, sometimes he heals through medicine, and sometimes he heals through both. Let God surprise you- pray for guidance, then walk through the doors he opens for you.

Just a dream..

Sometimes I wake up and I think to myself.. Why can't this just be a dream.. DO I HAVE TO WAKE UP THIS EARLY FOR SCHOOL?? I am getting so tired (already) of going to college. My professors are awful, the classes are terrible, and my major adviser is not helpful at all. What do I do from here?? I am so confused.. but this morning when I woke up I was SO excited to go and get my hair cut (I needed it) and when I got to my hair place I went inside and sat in the chair while I waited on her to get my stuff ready.. All of a sudden the people working there went psycho when one of them ran into the back room and started crying histarically.. It was then just me and a lady around the age of 65 sitting there wondering what's going on.. Then the lady turned to me and said I think she is really upset because her mother just got diagnoised with lung cancer.. So i began to just say aw that is really sad.. but then it became silent in the room and then the lady said.. "You know.. my first diagnois of cancer was in 1975 and I went through 35 treatments and then the second diagnois was in 2001 and I am still going through treatment each month. But you know.. (as she smiled) Cancer opened my eyes to a brand new world but guess what?? I am STILL ALIVE so I know my God has a plan for me.." as I sat in my chair soaking this all in.. I began to thank God for placing this woman next to me telling me about her cancer story.. I began to get more and more interested and she kept telling me about how she got saved at the age of 45 and that she is more happy than she has ever been now even though she lost her husband in a fire accident and she has been through a bunch of other things but she is just thankful that she is closer to the Lord through all of her tragedies and she can't complain. I was amazed by this woman and how inspirational she was.. & when the ladies came back out they told us what happened & that one of them might possibly have skin cancer. then the old lady hugged her & laughed and said welcome to the club! It was quite the most sad/ happiest moment of the day and I just thought I would add it in my blog because it made me think twice about me complaining all the time about how i hate my day to day life sometimes.

while i am writing my ipod is on shuffle and "Jesus take the wheel" just so happens to be on. hmmm.. okay the next thing I would like to talk about is how some people get misunderstood and big arguments start to brawl.. I wish this didnt happen because i feel that we are now in college and we should all grow up.. but it's hard to make it stop. Let me explain.. my life right now revolves around school, sorority, friends(boys & girls), church, and trying to get everything in my life straightened out. I am an easy, friendly, most of the time happy, fun, adventerous, loving, christian, and girly/sporty kind of girl. Most people would agree. But sometimes I come into situations that I didn't mean to hurt anybody or do something to make someone mad but it just happens to be that way sometimes and i'm sure it was a complete misunderstanding.. i believe that (this goes for everybody) instead of getting SO upset and mad at someone... just TALK TO THEM. not their best friends and not your best friends. THE PERSON THEMSELF. it might be hard but at least you tried and if it doesnt go so well.. AT LEAST you attempted to help the situation. I really want others to realize this!

OKay i am tired of writing about upsetting things.. haha guess what? I made Eagle Ambassadors and I am VERY excited about this! I can't wait to meet the new girls I will be working with. Along with.. I can NOT wait until SUMMER 09! woohoo!! 12 days for me of school!! I AM PUMPED ABOUT MY FRIENDS COMING BACK IN TOWN THAT MOVED OFF TO SCHOOL!!:) Also, this weekend I am going to formal for Pi Kappa Phi fraternity.. (please pray for me) that I will make it through.. HAHA jK! It will be fun and I am excited especially since I get to spend time with my best friend since literally birth! (kyndel)

I know I have posted this before but PLEASE read it again.. It's so true.

""You have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good. What is not, Won't. Relationships are worth fighting for. But, You can't be the only one fighting. People need to fight for you. If they don't, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. One day a person will realize great things when they come around and won't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then Be Fought For."

If only every day was Easter...

Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for your nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

This is my absolute favorite song and it means the most to me especaially at this time around this Easter holiday. God died on the cross for me & for you.. that is just a statement I've always heard growing up in church but this year it means so much more for some reason than ever before. I have finally realized how imporant life really is! While driving home one afternoon from school last week I kept singing Christian songs on the radio that were Easter related and it just made me think of this..

If every day was Easter...
then we would worship to Jesus to our fullest and not think twice about it
everyone you come in contact to is in a jolly and happy mood (only bc it is a holiday)
Stores and restaurants would be closed because of this "Religious Holiday"
School would be closed. :) & students would be able to breathe and rest up!!
Churches would have wonderful Easter programs <3
& last but not least.. families would be joined together to celebrate the risen Christ!

I love my church more than anything.. This is one reason why I stayed in Hattiesburg for college because the few Sundays I go out of town I miss my church more than ever!! I hate not going!! I really do feel like I have a "church family" and I have met so many new friends through the years and I really love the worship at Temple Baptist.

This weekend has been one of the craziest weekends because just in the next three weeks of school i have SO much going on. From school work (which is wayy to much to do), to Chi O events, to baseball games and family outings! WHEW! I am overwelmed but I know my God won't give me nothing that I can't handle! I got a citation (ticket) today at school for parking in the wrong area and I was on the phone with a good friend when I found it and I just laughed so hard when I saw it because I was like.. Really? THIS WOULD HAPPEN TO ME! I park there all the time and this ONE day they hunt me down and give me it! ah! Whatever.. you gotta learn somehow!

Thanks for the prayers. I wish you all the best of luck this week & enjoy yourself!

In our bonds,
Mary Lois

"1 son, 2 boards, 3 nails.. because He lives, I can face tomorrow!"

If only..

"In life God does not give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you cry, to make you laugh, to make you exactly the person that you should be."

"I believe in karma. What you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe that the grass is greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you have to say goodbye."

So I have had one of the worst/ hardest weeks in a very long time. I hate how I blog all the time about how hard of a time i am having but this is the only place i can write what i feel and people understand it. Thanks guys! But yes, I have been in the toughest situations ever in the past couple of days. It really makes me think about how ridiculous some people can be. I always try to learn from my mistakes but it is really hard to learn from something you did not do. Life is all about who you trust sometimes and it is hard when the person you loved/ trusted the most fails. This actually is meaning two different things/ ways right now but I'd rather not share.. so i am sorry if you are very confused (some know) but let me move on..

I am so thankful tomorrow is Sunday.. most everyone knows that Sunday is my favorite day of the week! It seems to fall in the perfect place when either A) I have had the best weekend and I want to thank God for letting me be able to have fun with my friends/ family! or B) It's been a tough week and I want to go to the Lord with my issues and see what he can help me do! I am praying daily for God to send me a friend to give me advice on what to do in some situations.. He always does and never fails & I know he puts them in my life for a reason! Lately, I have been very emotional about a certain situation. I am crying out to my friends to help me but most of them say it's MY situation and MY problem to deal with but we believe in you and you can do it!

I have said this before and I will say it again.. N O O N E will ever prepare you for what lies ahead but God has the options.. College is the hardest experience of my life. I won't lie.

If only I knew how hard it is living without a best friend.

If only I knew that my friends in high school weren't going to be here now

If only I knew how every day things turn into life lessons

If only I knew that I would wake up with my best friend in the room and go to sleep never wanting to talk to her again.

If only I knew who my true friends were/ are.

If only I knew who would be in my future..

If only God would tell me what lies ahead.

If only I could make predictions and they came true.

If only I was there when that happened.

If ony...

NEVER LIVE YOUR LIFE WONDERING IF ONLY... You can not make things happen only God can..

no words to describe..

Once again another day has come and almost gone. Classes went well today and I ended up spending time with my mom and we talked about some things today that I never thought we would talk about for a while.. My grandmother's sister (who is pretty much my 2nd grandmother) is in the hospital with a tumor close to her kidneys and she will be having surgery soon. My grandmother is very upset about this and even though we hope and pray Aunt Sissy will make it and be okay, Grandma is just stressing her little body out. (I think this is where I get my stress and care for one another from) But grandma's friends are worried about her and wants me and mom to come up and spend time with her. See my grandfather died when I was 5 and she has been living alone all these years. Luckily she is the best woman to her community and she has more friends than she(& my fam) could ever ask for!!! I pray daily for my grandmother and now for my great aunt! I can't go to Tennessee until mid May to visit and it's upsetting. :(
This was only one factor that kind of upset me today but a lot of more things happened and I just want to take time to thank God for his wonderful blessings even through the mist of tough times.. He is soverign in his throne and will always reign as King and father of my life.

WHY does the Spring time have to be SO hectic????????
Goodness gracious!!! Only 4 more weeks left of school but there is WAY too much to do between now and then. Anyways.. I just wanted to do my therapy of blogging..
I will leave you with my favorite song.. read the lyrics carefully <3

"Brave"
Don't know just where I'm going
And tomorrow, it's a little overwhelming
And the air is cold
And I'm not the same anymore
I've been running in your direction
For to long now
I've lost my own reflection
And I can't look down
If you're not there to catch me when I fall.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

All along all I ever wanted, was to be the light
When your life was daunting
But I can't see mine
When I feel as though you're pushing me away
Well who's to blame, are we making the right choices
Cause we can't be sure if we're hearing our own voices
As we close the door even though we are so desperate to stay

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe

This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last time before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid Cause it's my turn to be brave


Quote of the day: "God's primary purpose in healing us from our hurts is to introduce us to new depths of relationship with himself."

Here's to relationships

Of course, if you haven't noticed by now.. i LOVE QUOTES!!
so here it goes..

"You aren't going to be her first, her last, or her only. she's loved before, she will love again.. but if she loves you now what else matters? she's not perfect. you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. but if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think at least twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes.. hold on to her and give her the most you can. she's not thinking about you every moment but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break. don't hurt her, don't change her, don't expect more that she can give. don't analyze. smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad and miss her when she's not there. love hard when there is love to be had." -Grey's Anatomy

Lately I have been put through many circumstances than I ever have had in the past. Let me refresh your memory... I have been in two relationships in the past 5 years. I have dated and loved the best gentlemen and they will never be forgotten in my heart. They are both special in their own ways and taught me a lot of life lessons. I will always be thankful for the friends who got us together and for the friends who helped us both in the mist of bad situations (breakups). But now on to another subject.. God's been putting sayings and lyrics in my head over the past week. I CAN NOT GET RELATIONSHIP TYPE MUSIC OUT OF MY HEAD. Every time I put my ipod in to go running and put it on shuffle some kind of lovey dovey song comes on. I just don't get it! Maybe I will some day but not now.. I really enjoy conversations with friends who have the same problems ( literally speaking) as me and it's really helpful when we can talk through it and laugh at each other for thinking of the same thing. :) God is good!

To change the subject again, I am so very thankful for children.. I really have had the best times babysitting lately and hearing their sweet innocent voices talk about how much they REALLY love macdonalds or barbies or high school musical. It makes me laugh because OH how I wish to be 4 or 6 again. My favorite little girl sat in my lap at church this morning and all I could thank about is how much I truly love this child of God.. She makes me laugh when I am just not in a laughing kind of mood. She drew me a note today and all it had on it was lots of hearts and I love You... that ment so much to me and I will forever keep it in my bible to remind me of her.
I babysat the other day and another little boy was riding with me on our way home and i said hey what do you want to do today and he said.. Oh, um we could go to the zoo, or go to the toystore or even KFC!!!! I just died out laughing and was like Ummm it's about to storm maybe we can play inside. haha Wow I live for these moments to play with children. I really wish I knew what I want to do as a job in the future.. kids, sports, psychiatry, public relations? If anyone knows of anything good.. PLEASE let me know! HA

Have a great week..:) End with a quote.

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away." -Meredith Grey

life's plan

"Lord, in my heart I plan my course, but You determine my steps. "(Prov. 16:9)

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me then you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD,"and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV

So a lot has been going on lately and I have been dwelling in scripture to help me through these times. Once again the main facts are SCHOOl, family, friends, and relationship. At this time of year school has been hectic and it seems like all my teachers are making me write more and more papers that are so pointless. I have been so busy doing schoolwork that I have NO free time for myself. I hate it! but whatever.. summer is around the corner:)

Family- since I am an only child and the rest of my relatives live in Tennesee, we rarely see them except for big holidays! which i wish we could change because i love my grandmother more than anything in this world!! She is an amazing woman who lost her husband at a young age and is the most spiritual person i have ever met in my life! Friends- I am stuck at figuring out who I am and who i want to become that I can't decide which type of friends I should continue hanging out with.. I love them all and its not like i dont want friends- that would be crazy. HA but I just want to settle down and figure out my life and my future and it is difficult.

The other night I talked for hours to an old friend who I enjoyed talking to because we have so much in common that we never even knew we did! We continued talking about how we wished we knew what our future held.. about how "we" have NO idea what to do with our lives.. it's so stressful not knowing who is going to be in our future and what jobs we are going to have and so on.. AH! But I have learned so many lessons about just LIVE your LIFE.. about how imporant college years are because they fly by in a heart beat and there's no going back. So with that saying.. "Trust in the Lord God with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding."

Relationships- will come for another blog of its own.. one day..